Snowflake Challenge Day 8
Jan. 8th, 2014 11:41 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vassaladyIn your own space, create a love meme for yourself. Let people tell you how amazing and awesome and loveable you really are. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so. Surf the comments and find people to give love to.
Ok, so here it is: last time I'm writing anything here. I've tried for the last hour to find something to say in this post, and every time I delete it because I hate how it sounds and I hate how it makes me sound, but fuck it, I need to get this out.
I had a really shitty evening last night, ok? I felt sad and friendless and talentless and worthless (even if INTELLECTUALLY, I know none of that is true), and I'm still feeling it, and there was a family ER yesterday, which just exacerbated everything, and now I have to go to work where people are going to yell at me like it's my fault things aren't going right in their lives. Fun Day.
I don't feel like I can ever ask people to listen to my issues, because I don't want to burden them when they have their own shit going on. And I don't even feel comfortable asking for hugs, even though I love giving them, but when I need one, I will never ask, and I'm not entirely sure why.
Well. Now I'm asking you to tell me something nice. I want to do this for you, too, but I need some time away first, because this has been too hard to post in the first place, and I need some time.
Just. If you do leave something here for me... Thank you, in advance. Really. <3
Ok, so here it is: last time I'm writing anything here. I've tried for the last hour to find something to say in this post, and every time I delete it because I hate how it sounds and I hate how it makes me sound, but fuck it, I need to get this out.
I had a really shitty evening last night, ok? I felt sad and friendless and talentless and worthless (even if INTELLECTUALLY, I know none of that is true), and I'm still feeling it, and there was a family ER yesterday, which just exacerbated everything, and now I have to go to work where people are going to yell at me like it's my fault things aren't going right in their lives. Fun Day.
I don't feel like I can ever ask people to listen to my issues, because I don't want to burden them when they have their own shit going on. And I don't even feel comfortable asking for hugs, even though I love giving them, but when I need one, I will never ask, and I'm not entirely sure why.
Well. Now I'm asking you to tell me something nice. I want to do this for you, too, but I need some time away first, because this has been too hard to post in the first place, and I need some time.
Just. If you do leave something here for me... Thank you, in advance. Really. <3
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Date: 2014-01-08 07:22 pm (UTC)Asking for love and support can be so difficult, can't it? Well, I think you're incredibly strong and brave, even just for posting this, and you're most definitely very talented (I just went and read some of your fic, in fact, so I can confirm that!). If you ever need to talk, I'm always willing to listen. You're not a burden. Really.
(((((HUGS)))))
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Date: 2014-01-09 03:45 pm (UTC)Oh, that wasn't necessary to look at my fic, but I'm really touched!!
Thank you so much. Your words mean a lot to me. <3 <3